Love and Truth

Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD; may your love and your truth always protect me. Ps 40:11

One Sunday morning, early in our family life, I was overwhelmed with frustration in the demanding role of being a mother and wife. In my anger I decided to stay home at the last minute when everyone was heading out the door to church. They left and I was home alone. I was sick and tired of serving my husband and children. And for what! Can’t I have a life? What about me! The longer I stayed in my funk, the more resentment and sentiments that were not very positive toward marriage, parenting, and even church, grew.

In my frustration I turned to God with my journal and Bible in lap. I sat there and felt God asking me, “Well, what about you? What energizes you?”

I knew in my heart right away. #1 Being outside in nature. #2 Worship music. #3 Serving people. Hey, wait a minute, what was that? Yes, that was the truth. What I’d always wanted was to be a wife and mother. It energized me.

And here I was resenting this very thing. Why? In my anger and frustration I walked right outside of the protective border of love and truth...walked right into enemy territory and bought into a lie.

When I realized this, I was mad once more. But this time I was mad at the enemy. He picked on one of the most precious things in my life that gave me life, and spoke lies into my heart so that I began to feel that this blessing was actually a curse in my life. O how cruel he is.

Dear sisters, we women need to guard our hearts and minds. We need to be aware of what we’re thinking and why we’re thinking it. And we need to be careful not to step outside of God’s love and truth. Is there any place in your heart and mind, where the enemy is robbing you? “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I (Jesus) came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” John 10:10

I renounced the lies of the enemy and clung to the truth. The truth that God is good and has good in mind for me. By the time my family came home after church, I had my true heart back.