I have a feeling that my little tear jar in heaven has been getting more than it's fair share this week. I've cried a lot. I'm still crying and sometimes my face just feels like crying even when I don't have any tears.
I'm not broken. I'm not depressed.
My heart has sadness in it. But not despair. There is a difference.
I have not lost hope. I have not abandoned my faith. On the contrary....just saying His precious name in my mind brings a smile to my face.
He is Faithful and True. He is the Light in the darkness. He is the deepest Joy of my heart.
I cannot help but think of dear David when I feel this way. The Psalms are full of his emotion and faith.
I also cannot help but feel homesick for the place I've never seen. There's a longing in my heart to be with the One who loves me and you more than the life He sacrificed so that we could live.
Not just live....but LIVE...really live.
Be comforted. Look to the Light. Look to Jesus. Rest in his arms. Breathe in...the life that he offers. His blood. His sacrifice. Our life. Our gain. All for love. All you've been looking for. Every answer to every question. Filled with joy in the midst of sadness. Only Jesus can do that. Only God. The Faithful. The True. The Living.
And I love Him.
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Thank you, Julie. Beautiful and true.
ReplyDeleteDear God, thank you so much for allowing me to read this when my heart is open to it. My heart longs the same way and if I had read this when it was written I would not have received it. Thank you Jesus for your timing... that it is perfect! God, you are working and teaching me alot but I had to be broken and in the pit of hell to be open to receive what you have for me. Thank you for your love Jesus. Amen!
ReplyDeleteThanks Julie for being open to God's wisdom and words. Love you!