Soul Kitchen

For many years I have resisted being "girly”. I have resisted embracing all that it is (or at least all I thought) epitomized being a girl: I would never attend a “girls' night”; I spend way less time getting ready to go out than my husband - a long shower for me is 5 minutes; I don’t enjoy chick flicks; and the colour pink makes me nauseous. The saddest thing of all though is that this prideful need to stand apart from other girls has led me to resist opening up to other females and truly sharing my heart with them. That’s why I consider it quite monumental that I even considered being a writer for this blog - even more so that I was excited about it. The Lord has been using a handful of women to speak to my heart and speak His truth into my life. These women have shown me the value of “girlfriends” (a term that used to make my skin crawl!), and the blessings that the Lord can give us through them. I am starting to learn the richness and beauty of having other women share their journeys with me, and to walk with me on my journey. This is why I was excited when I was approached to share my journey with you all. Perhaps I can offer some of the same encouragement that I have received by peering into the journeys of other women. Perhaps also this is me throwing aside my pride and realizing that I should embrace my sisters, my girlfriends and soak up what that special bond has to offer.

I am fearless! Well, I am not really, not at all. However, that is the name that I am using for Soul Kitchen, and here’s the reason why: because I am so governed by fear! I have a dear friend who likes to call a spade a spade. She tells you how it is, whether you want to hear it or not. One day I was sharing with her my concerns, annoyances, really everything that was on my mind and troubling me. As I was talking, it dawned on both of us that almost every struggle I seem to be bugged by is a result of some sort of fear. So why on earth is my name Fearless? Because I know the truth, and the truth is there is nothing to fear. Although I am full of fear (either tangible fears or psychological fears such as the fear of giving up control), I know that God does not want me to live in fear. I am choosing Fearless as my name as it signifies the journey that I am on and it reminds me of who I am supposed to be…

…and as part of my walk toward freedom and fearlessness I will cast aside a fear and begin my journey as a contributor for Soul Kitchen.