He Holds the Future

Here Goes ladies!

When I was approached about joining the authors for Soulkitchensisters, I really was not sure that anyone would want to hear about the journey I am on these days. Who wants to hear about sickness, weakness, tiredness and lab reports on my ailing husband and myself? Or, read about all the questions and conversations we have with each other, the Lord and dancing girl has with herself? Al and I are on the ride of our lives and for our lives! We all will one day get to be our age (not yet that old-74 and 76) and face health, as well as life and death issues. Hence, I'll take the plunge and take some of you with me on this ride.
Some days, all we can do is to finally get dressed in the morning, huffing and puffing with every little task just to make it through the day. All the while we listen to each others complaints: "How was your night?" "Oh, you know, I had to get up every hour on the hours. That's why I am so tired and sleepy during the day". "I am so sorry, maybe if you take a Tylenol you'll get two hours of solid sleep tomorrow." "How did you tolerate that pudding?" "Well, my stomach burns, I feel so nauseated, I have to lay down!"
"Ok honey, did you have some ginger ale yet?" "How about a Lorazepam?" "No, it makes me too groggy!" "Boy, today I, (dancing girl,) could hardly get my breath." " I don't know why it feels like my legs will buckle under me just doing a little walking around the house, loading the dishwasher, or take a walk from our condominium apartment to the mail box on the main floor.?" We live on the second floor. Two days ago I had a thought. "Lord, show us what we should do?" "What more or what not should I do?" For Al, he thought he would stop the antibiotic (the last dose), since his stomach and nausea were really bad. This morning he felt somewhat better. For myself, I got the thought that perhaps my blood pressure
medications were too much. All 4 of the medications had a warning on the bottle, "can cause dizziness". Ok, I am going first thing in the morning to check this out with my doctor. Well, to make a long story short, one of the medications had to be cut in half as it slows the heart too much. This was a relief. All the time, I keep a running conversation with my Jesus. You know, "They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; listen God, you know you could just cure that aggressive leukemia of Al's and it would not be hard for you at all; oh great, Lord, now what is next?; the doctor says, medicine can no longer help him!" One sweet gal, Tracy, suggested we try the naturalist that has helped her. So, that appointment will come up in three week. Stay tuned. In the meantime, we look forward to a family reunion where we will celebrate all our 5 spring birthdays and Al would like to give a special blessing to each of our children, their spouses and grandchildren. We don't know how much longer God gives him life, but thought we should do a get to gather while he is still able to talk. Even if he has to lay in bed at the hotel. Another comfort is to know that while we don't know what our future holds, we know who hold the future. We are in God's loving hands. We have grabbed on to the Lord and His Word, because we would not want to do this journey without Him.