God gets mad at me because i don't understand why he lets what he lets happen happen. he could be a father to me and be patient and explain it to me...but instead he just gets pissed off and beats my ass. he is a shitty father.
Thanks for your comment, erica. I really appreciate your vulnerability. I hear you and can say that I have also seen God a whole lot differently than He portrays Himself in Scripture and creation. That's a hard place to be - when we need God, but we don't feel that He is there for us or cares about us. I'm feeling for you, sister!
As I pray for you right now and listen, I feel that God is saying to you, "I care. ...about you, erica. You don't piss me off and I'm not mad at you. That's not my voice you're hearing. My voice is love, not condemnation. My voice is tender and inviting. I don't use my strength to beat you, but to display my love and to hold you. Let me. You've shared your heart with me, now let me share my heart with you. Be open to see me for who I really am. erica, are you willing to let me show you? Are you game?"
Hey erica, I hope you say "yes". You are His precious daughter and God does love you! This I know. I pray that you will know it in the deepest part of your heart too.
My favorite room in the house is the kitchen. It's where my family connects in the busyness of life. And when my girlfriends come over...it is naturally the gathering place for catching up or sharing our hearts. So, I'm inviting you to Our Kitchen. Come on in, grab a cup of coffee or a diet coke and come to the table. This kitchen is a place for women to gather on line for encouragement and the building up of our faith. We are a group of women writers with hearts for women...each coming to the table with a different perspective and journey but related as sisters by One Heavenly Father. Our prayer is that you will be encouraged in your journey and strengthened in your faith, as we daily bare a little bit of our souls and what Jesus Christ has done for us.
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God gets mad at me because i don't understand why he lets what he lets happen happen. he could be a father to me and be patient and explain it to me...but instead he just gets pissed off and beats my ass. he is a shitty father.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment, erica. I really appreciate your vulnerability. I hear you and can say that I have also seen God a whole lot differently than He portrays Himself in Scripture and creation. That's a hard place to be - when we need God, but we don't feel that He is there for us or cares about us. I'm feeling for you, sister!
DeleteAs I pray for you right now and listen, I feel that God is saying to you, "I care. ...about you, erica. You don't piss me off and I'm not mad at you. That's not my voice you're hearing. My voice is love, not condemnation. My voice is tender and inviting. I don't use my strength to beat you, but to display my love and to hold you. Let me. You've shared your heart with me, now let me share my heart with you. Be open to see me for who I really am. erica, are you willing to let me show you? Are you game?"
Hey erica, I hope you say "yes". You are His precious daughter and God does love you! This I know. I pray that you will know it in the deepest part of your heart too.
Love, Marianne