Saturday, June 25, 2011

Fearless Queen


I've recently been reading through the book of Esther. Even after having read it many times, I'm still amazed by the story. A young girl is chosen to be queen and God uses her to save her people, the Jews, from horrible slaughter. I try to imagine myself in that situation... and I know for a fact that I would be terrified. Even Esther did not want to do it at first, fearing for her own life. But in the end, she asked the Jews to fast and pray for her, and in faith she went and told the king of Haman's plans. Wow. I don't think that kind of courage could come from anywhere except from God. If I was Esther, would I have that kind of faith and trust in the LORD? Would I allow Him to help me overcome my fears? It's something I've been challenged with a lot this past week.

We all have fears. We are afraid of our loved ones dying, of being hurt, of natural disasters... some of us are even afraid of making mistakes. And I think a lot of the time we choose to let those fears sit inside us and eat us up. What I've learned from reading Esther's story is that God wants us to call to Him, just like Esther did by fasting and praying. If we give up all our fears to God, He can release us from those chains. I believe that God calls us to face our fears with Him at our side... to be fearless queens.

Friday, June 24, 2011

I Will Trust Him Today

Each day...full of gifts.  Two in particular, that I love and share life with...grown from the love of two, so imperfect people, that began a life together twenty years ago.  The oldest is home...sick.  He makes me smile every day with his strong but tender heart.  The younger one, gone on a special trip with my parents...I'm homesick for.  Never have we been so far apart, for so long.  I feel like the three weeks  she'll be gone, are sure to do me in.  I ask the Lord how I will survive...my heart aches so bad for the one I miss laughing through the house.  And I think of dear women that have had to say goodbye to their babies  until they meet them again in eternity....and that grace that gets them through each day of missing...and then I stop, because I don't want to think about it....and that fear in my heart begins to swell....

Letting go.

That tight fist that clings within my heart that says, "Please, God...I'm not ready to let go."

Can I trust Him? 
Can I trust Him with the one who's sick?
Can I trust him with the one that I miss?
Can I unclench that hand that wants desperately to hold on tight to what I can't control...

Is He or is He not...the Lord of my heart?  Is He not the Lord of the World?

He is.
I claim Him.
Lord of my heart and Lord of this World.
He is the Giver of every good gift.
He is the Lover of my soul.
He provides...He protects...He comforts...He creates...
He Lives and Breathes His own Spirit within me.
I will trust Him with all that I can't trust myself with.
 I will trust Him with my heart, with my mind, with my beloved gifts...
a son and a daughter, born of love...from us and from Him.

I will trust Him today.
And tomorrow, when I wake up, I will trust Him again.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies?
Yet not one of them is forgotten by God.
Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

Luke 12: 6-7

His eye is on the sparrow, and He watches over me.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

I am thankful today for a God who listens.

I am thankful today for a God who speaks.

I am thankful today for a God who loves without favorites.

I am thankful today for a God who forgives.

I am thankful today for a God who provides.

Blessed be His Holy Name...Great and Wonderful is He...
Light of the World and Lord of my Heart.
More precious than all creation.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Beautiful, beautiful

I just wanted to share the lyrics of a song I really like by Francesca Battistelli...

Don’t know how it is You looked at me
And saw the person that I could be
Awakening my heart
Breaking through the dark
Suddenly Your grace


Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful

Now there’s a joy inside I can’t contain
But even perfect days can end in rain
And though it’s pouring down
I see You through the clouds
Shining on my face


Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful

I hope it encourages you like it did me :)

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Come to Rest

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30


I wrote a couple of weeks ago about Jesus speaking to me about learning how to live in "his rest".  I can honestly say that this has been such a new thing for me that I am still in awe, still changing, still growing!  I know that I have experienced "pockets" of his rest at different times of my life.  Some of those times I believe He just shielded me and put me there in my desperation because I did not know how to get there myself.  Other times, I allowed the Holy Spirit to guide me there but I did not realize that it was a place that one could actually stay and live.  I am sure that I have had a pattern of anxiousness and striving for about 40 years now and so I know that old habits are a little hard to break.  But you know...even in this last little while...I am aware.  Aware when I slip back into old patterns.  Aware that the peace and rest of my Saviour is always available. 


 Isaiah 30:15  "....in returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength."


When the weight of the world feels like it's resting on your shoulders...and your burdens seem too much to bear....when your heart is heavy and you can't sleep because your mind just won't stop worrying like a ferris wheel going round and round...when you strive and strive and strive to make things happen and it feels like waste...


Return dear one....Focus your eyes on the One who Redeems...the One who Saves...trust His precious heart that is full of grace and truth for you.  Give Him the burdens of your heart and mind...Repent and let go of what you need to...and take His hand.  Listen to His words....and let them sink in.






“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30